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ONE NIGHT STAND (stories 3)

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“I was worried about sex when I was a teenager. I was not prepared, and I first had a fairytale fantasy when I was with someone who felt like a soul mate. In college, I took it with me. That, so I fell in love with almost all the way, but I have never been there. And when I was in my early 20s, my inexperienced pressure made me return to interpersonal relationships - out of fear because of this I was found missing, and I didn't have this knowledge.


“Finally, I slept with a man of about five dates, and after that I stopped several dates. So when I started to see my next boyfriend, my experience was very limited. This relationship is made up of many people when the missionary's sex and limited orgasm end, after six months, I still feel that I should not be an adult responsible for my own sexual behavior, as I should. I really I don't know how to ask what I want or really, how to find out what I want when I am not myself.


"Basically, I lost my virginity when I was 26, so this single moment feels like I have a chance to do something a little reckless. I joined the occupier. I lay down for a while, emailed the guy, went. Some dates, but never felt comfortable enough to go home with those men. Then I knew a professor who was a few years older than me, then asked him once and then asked if he wanted to meet and drink. He did We went out on Sunday night and took a shot. I didn't feel the real connection - or it was sincere, the real chemical reaction - but I did feel comfortable with him, relaxed conversation and laughter. After three drinks, we left I made a street and headed for the general direction of our (convenient proximity) place. When he said rudely, "I don't think you want to come up, just to have a drink," I was surprised at him. We walked Going to his position, starting to make, things are easy to upgrade. Maybe for the first time because I didn't feel any real pressure or expectation, I can be more blunt. What did you do, didn't like anything. I put my hand where I wanted. If I stood at the front, I wouldn't worry if the shaking in my middle would become unattractive. Finally, I still didn't have that night. It culminated, but I did change some of the thoughts and inhibitions about sex and intimacy.


"But, the next morning, I woke up before 6am and felt very uncomfortable. I didn't want to be there. So I lied at the early meeting, left, and never called him again. And he didn't call me. The only problem is: Although I don't want to see this person again, in fact he obviously feels the same, and on the same page as me, it feels like rejection. It's hard. That's why I have never done this again, but in a strange way, this is one of the most important things I have done for myself."